My Fasting Experience part 1

This is a piece I wrote in July of 2020, leading up the Lion's Gate portal when I was deep in my awakening journey and decided to fast and cleanse for a few days. This is my live account from that time and experience. For legal reasons I have to warn you all, I'm not a doctor, I am not recommending strict water fasting per se, and I encourage you to do your own research and talk to a medical professional before embarking on your own experiments like me :)


Sorry I’ve been silent. I’ve been exploring and growing and taking space. Healing on quantum levels and feeling into many different timelines and soul fragments. This has been a beautifully revealing process, letting go into love and surrendering to whatever emotion I’m meant to feel. If there’s anything I’ve learned, it’s that pain is not something to shy away from. Pain is a portal that leads us to new discoveries and new beginnings.


“What you feel, you heal” - Raphael Awen.


And I’ve been feeling a lot, as I’m sure we all have. Feeling into my relationships and what parts of me are triggered by what. Releasing old beliefs that no longer serve in this vast new dimension. Holding space for myself and my parts and watching myself change and grow on quantum levels.


I’ve been experimenting with fasting as well, starting out with intermittent fasting and now doing extended water fasts. The reasons I’ve been guided to this feels like a release for my cells from the toxicity and stale, trapped emotions, 3D limitations, and old wounds in my body. Feeling into my body deeply in whatever state it’s moving through, and redefining what “hunger” means to me.


Hunger feels like another mental block and concept that is enforced on us by our physical reality. We’re told to eat 3 meals a day, plus snacks, which are usually full of processed and chemical ingredients that are not nutritional or even food. We’re told to eat way more than our bodies really need, which leads to toxins and excess and this perception of our reliance on food. I used to be the type of person who would eat at least every 2-3 hours, always snacking or munching on something, never skipping breakfast and anxiously keeping way too much food. It felt like some sort of trauma reaction to being left without food as a child, I always had to have food in the house. I thought that I would die or feel horrible if I didn’t eat for a day.

I started experimenting with intermittent fasting a while ago, not eating for just 16 hours or so, and my stomach would grumble and persist and I felt hungry deep down to my bones. But then I would eat and my body would say “ugh, ew, why did you give me this?” and I felt heavy and overly full. But after practicing it, my body adjusted easily. The same happened when I tried a 24-hour fast, at the end of it I thought I was fainting with hunger and needed to eat that instant, or I would die. But then I ate and felt way too full and gross. Now I’m in the process of redefining hunger, and what my body actually wants and needs.


Hunger is not the rumbles your stomach makes (which are very normal and happen all the time, but the food in your stomach muffles them), or having to eat at a set “mealtime” each day. I’m still trying to figure out what hunger means to me. For all we know, it could be an illusion like everything else in this crazy world. But I’m curious to find out. I feel drawn to this subject, and find myself continually following it into the dark, even if the people around me are concerned or don’t understand. I know that I’m being guided through this, and am always safe and protected. The growing awareness in my body ensures that I’ll know when to stop.

I’ve also learned that the body heals itself when it’s in a fasted state, removing waste from cells and regenerating them through the process of autophagy. Now I’ve been so fascinated with this subject, I don’t fully know why, but I’ve been doing a lot of research on it. I’ve been reading scientific and personal accounts of people who’ve done extended fasts, and the results are truly transformative. I felt pulled to give it a try myself. Not for a crazy amount of time or anything, just a few days to see how it feels and give my body a chance to digest and reset. This turmoil around us, in the news, in the world, is all a reflection of the inner world. What triggers you is what needs to be felt and moved through. There’s a part that’s scared and looking for protection and love from your higher self.


So now I’m on day 3 of what is going to be an 8 day cleanse leading up to the Lion’s Gate portal on 08/08 (idk why but I feel guided to it this way) mostly